After loads of therapy dealing with grief and loss, taking the next step forward is among the hardest. I laugh (in my ironic not really funny laugh) when I read the Kübler-Ross five (5) stages of grief.
1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance
What the hell? After acceptance…it doesn’t end. You don’t wake up one day and say, “ok, I’ve accepted the death or loss and now everything is fine”. On the contrary, as I have mentioned in previous posts, it is a beginning of dealing with the collateral damage left in the wake of the loss.
Today, the next piece I have to pick up slapped me in the face. I have no faith — not only religiously, but spiritually. This may be harder than I ever imagined. I was reminded tonight of Buddha teachings “Relinquish desires and you will be free from suffering”. Time to live in the present…the now and not worry about the future to rebuild my faith. I have daily exercises to focus on the now, I will let you know how it goes. I will be focusing on the grain of sand and not the entire beach.
